Most people that meet me say that I come across as confident. I’m here to tell you that is a facade. Seriously, I have let my fear stop me from doing things, from achieving things, from going after what I really want in life. If you met me, you probably wouldn’t know that I get anxiety.
Let me give you an example. This past weekend I was fortunate enough to attend the Nutritional Coaching Institute Level 1 in Washington, D.C. I had the option of attending via livestream or in person. My anxiety told me to stay home, do it from the comfort of my home. It’s safe there.
I booked my ticket.
When I researched hotels, they were freaking expensive. I could afford to stay by myself but just couldn’t bring myself to pay that much per night. I also knew that there was a girl looking for a roomie. Staying with a COMPLETE stranger is WAY OUT of my comfort zone. I could feel that anxiety creeping in again.
I sent her a message.
I had the opportunity to expand my network and meet an awesome nutrition coach, Tina, from Anchorage, Alaska. How amazing is that? She has also inspired me….stay tuned for more video content coming from me.
It’s still surreal that I was able to sit amongst some of the most amazing minds leading the way in responsible nutrition coaching. Nutrition coaches who are leading from the front to educate people that you don’t need to live in starvation and misery. Nutrition coaches who value people over numbers. To think, I was going to stay home.
Even writing this post is making me uneasy. I can feel my anxiety creeping in. It’s uncomfortable to be vulnerable. It makes my stomach upset. It makes me second guess my choices. It makes me want to throw up. It makes me want to run the other direction.
Go after what you want.